Usually I try to keep from addressing my faith and not putting it in ‘your face’; but I want to address a comment given to me about my opinions of Jōb. The comment was, (not a quote), “if your god is so great why doesn’t he tell you why you are given pain?” Well, that is so simple that anyone should be able to answer it. The answer is because we are human and full of “self ”!
Self-pride; self-esteem; self-knowledge; self-wisdom; self-know-it-all; self; self; self!
We, as humans, think that we should always be in control of all things of our lives. We think that we know what is best for us. And heck, add that we even know what is best for everyone else. [Me included] We give advice; we condemn; we question…… You get what I am saying; if not then you are so narcissistic that you will never get it. You know satan was the first narcissistic being. Sure enough he was.
So let me put it this way. God’s plan is His. It is not mine and until I totally release everything to Him, I sure will never know why. Then, if I were to know the “why’s”, being human, I will try to put my stamp on it. Meaning I would either try to get out of it or try to refuse the reason. Or I might use my own self mind to try and enhance the “why”. [Surely as a human I can do it better…(sarcasm, y’all) ] We all know how doing things our way ends up. Either – – if we are a strong believer, we end up having to go back to Him to correct what we tried to do to improve what God’s plan was. Or – – if we are not such a strong believer, we will lose our faith as we try to improve upon God’s plan. Satan has won. Or at the least he will have a “nah-nah, nah-nah” moment in front of the LORD.
We are human and we forget that most things we do are just ego trips for us. We might think we are doing God’s work, but sometimes we are just doing our works. So if the LORD sent me a postcard and said, “dear child, I have given you this disease so you can show such and such how strong you are”. Well, what do you think my ego would do with that little note sent to me? I would be waving it in front of all the faces I could find, laughing and say things like, “He chose me!” Or even, “see I told you so, you need to think differently about me, the Lord is telling me that you are the reason I suffer.”
So, I must remember the questions that our LORD asked Jōb.
2 Who is this that darkeneth counsel by words without knowledge?
4 Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth? declare, if thou has understanding.
12 Hast thou commanded the morning since thy days; and caused the dayspring to know his place;
13 That it might take hold of the ends of the earth, that the wicked might be shaken out of it?
1 Moreover the LORD answered Job, and said,
2 Shall he [Jōb, added by me] that contendeth with the Almighty instruct him? he that reproveth God, let him answer it.
Then what does Jōb do? He cannot face the questions that were put to his face.
3 Then Job answered the LORD, and said,
4 Behold, I am vile; what shall I answer thee? I will lay mine hand upon my mouth.
Then the LORD answers with:
8 Wilt thou also disannul my judgement? wilt thou condemn me, that thou mayest be righteous?
10 Deck thyself now with majesty and excellency; and array thyself with glory and beauty.
11 Cast abroad the rage of thy wrath: …..
So, to all those that question the why of their disease, just know that there is a plan. It might be hard to accept. Just don’t waste your energy on the why’s. Use that energy to build your life, your faith, your comfort, your strength [not just physical, but mental and spiritual]. The LORD has a purpose for everything that happens; even for those nights you cannot sleep. Even for the discomforts you feel. Even the trials from the lack, or overabundance, of support for and from family that we need to receive and give.
I was sitting on my swing for my morning coffee and read a little comment that brought me to tears of happiness. The comment was from another Tarlov’er who said they thought I used grace to go through these trials. Their comment lifted me up with joy. Why? Not only were they kind words, but because I had just read a comment from another who was sarcastic and biting with their comment of something that could be read as ‘you are a fool’. The LORD provided the second Tarlov’er’s comment to lift me up, just as He provided Jōb as an example. And just in case you are wondering, I still love my support groups! They keep me honest. And no, the comment/question about my God was not on the support group. It came from a reader and a comment such as what was posted is not allowed to be shared for my readers.
I will leave you with John 3:12:
If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?
All quotes are from the King James version